DARE

I was trying to start a new writing for a really long time, one year actually.
I didn't know where to start.
Now I know.

It was almost two years ago. I had arranged to meet at my cousins house for dinner that night. They had prepared a nice meal for me. I had just started to work crazy hours at a production company in the post-production department. That afternoon, we were waiting for an approval about an advert from an advertising company as usual. I told my boss that I arranged to meet with my cousin and that I had been working until 1am for two nights in a row. I thought: ''It should not be a problem, how longer was he planning to keep me there?'' Turned out much more! I had weeks when I did not have any day off, nights that I did not return home. That night I went to my cousins despite of the threat of my boss. Through thirty minutes of ride I cried shouting: ''I can't stand this.'' It wasn't a cry of sadness, I was feeling desperate, trying to find a way out.

My cousin said something to me that night that I have been thinking about since then: ''Try to look at this job as a game.'' I didn't understand the concept of playing games in any manner. I did not play computer games, I did not go out much to have fun (I really had no time) and I looked at everything very seriously cause I thought it had to be that way.

Now there is a long story where I struggled really hard to change that scene in my life.
The scene where I go to a work that I simply don't belong to.
That way was painful. Someone who have been or who is there knows it well.
And there is no game in that scene because the player is not you.   
Now I am the player and I am having fun, I am happy.
It does not mean that I am not challenged, I am highly challenged in many ways that make me better, make me feel much more fulfilled.
So now I understand what playing games mean!
And my playground is anywhere that I am.

LOVE.

Plasticity

Can we re-design ourselves? Can we build a new life, re-gain our intelligence to the needs of our soul? But what is the soul, how can you describe it? If we only had our logic but no feelings surely our experience would widen but it also would make us a machine. Would you feel "happy", "disgusted", "miserable", "content"? The problem is, even though we have these emotions, we are still ruled as a machine if we don't know how to use the base of our intelligence. According to the Multiple Intelligences Theory we have seven different types of intelligences: Musical, Bodily-Kinesthetic, Logical-Mathematical, Linguistic, Spatial, Interpersonal and Intrapersonal Intelligences. The main idea is that every human has combinations of different types, some of them being fairly dominant but if one does not have Interpersonal Intelligence, no matter how profound talents they may have, they are eventually ruled.  

Why don't people have it?
Does your life get easier?
Do you like not knowing?
No curiosity, no critical thinking?

If you let the "flow" take you wherever, you may as well go with it.

Make God Of Yourself

A-Mors Amore which means Love comes from the latin word, a-mors which means deathless. Where there is love, there can be no fear, no death. Why don't they teach us why and where we came from in schools? They don't want open minds. Instead, we learn to be blinded, shut our minds down and be scared to death of anything that might happen. Or be numb and drugged. We don't really "know" but we do everything out of fear, subconsciously. Fear of that one day we will die and we won't get to do everything that we "want" to do and thus we rush into everything even if we don't want to, even consciously. Did you ever think that you don't have to be so clever to work and earn money because it is why this system is build for? What would you do if today was your last day on earth? What would you do today if you knew you'd live forever?

Do you have an alternative?

The woman asks to the man who seems to look frozen: 'Why are you here for?'

He answers with a Russian accent: 'I am here to work.'

W: 'How many hours do you work in a day?'

M: '24 hours.'

W: 'You work 24 hours a day! Have you even been hypnotized?'

M: 'I am here to work.'

Do you want to be so aware that it might give you ultimate pain and pleasure at the same 'time'?

How High Are the Stakes?

It's nothing you're going through.

Annoying to hear it. Someone who is more experienced or someone who does not take
experiences seriously tells you this while you're going through hard times.
But what is the meaning of life if you divide it into two parts, hard and easy?
You can separate things relatively but what matters is how it makes you feel at that moment.
Be patient, live your own way!

In Your Life, Choose.

Know It All

Mr.Nobody does not make a choice. He is nine years old and he is one hundred eighteen years old.
While his parents decide to get separated, he, as a child, is left to make a choice between father
and mother. While two stories are being written, there is only one choice that wants to be seen,
wants o be chosen; it is love, Anna. But every possible choice is being made at the same time.
It shows infinity. Everything floats. Mr.Nobody and the choices can not exist without matching each other.
So, without making a choice we are not truly alive. We appear to be, by the illusion of our mind, thus our eyes. But actually we are nucleotides which can not create a DNA together, yet.
It's like an egg that can be fertile and a sperm that's productive. Without sex there is no unity.
Make a choice, and the right one. Calculate every possibility, your mind is created for this.
Be someone who knows it all.

Liberty

Just Do It, Still The Perfect Slogan!

How do you look at a statue, from below, above?
Why and when people started to make them, what do they represent?
Immortality, God? Something superior of course.
But what is statue anxiety, and who is your boss really?
I'm sure that most of the times, in your head, you've had the misunderstanding of a person,
rather than who she or he really is, instead you have the image that has been given to you. And again, you don't look at them long enough to take out their mask. I came to understand that when people treat you in a way, when it's the only way they could feel superior of you is when they aren't. Next time, look into their eyes a little bit longer, to see what's going on. They are worried that you are going to see right through them. They have certain body movements, anxious, sudden movements. You will see, very easy to identify. When you do, you know inside that you are very safe where ever you go, that you are the one who doesn't need a box to hide, the only boundaries you have are your own decisions for exploring and they are very wide.