22.12.2009

" A poet is someone who stands outside in the rain hoping to be struck by lightning."


I shot these and I thought: I have nothing to write here today. Let's search quotes on rain. Some of them were about rain being as needed as sun, sun shine in, whatever. I wrote about how I believed in contradictions, no need one more round. So I found this quote about poems. I never really understand poems, infact I never really understand a topic by its title, something is only meaningful only if I can relate it with its owner. Right, owner. You have to own your work to make it perfectly understood. And when someone makes it about being the 'artist' he lowers his value as a human. That's why I loved this quote very much. It's by James Dickey, a poet himself.




9.12.2009

Mickey

My Dog Had Surgery two weeks ago. When someone from my family or someone who is as close to me has surgery I try to stay close to them. I get very curious when sickness or death appears around me. Of course it is easy to mention right now because he is fine, but he is getting older. We are used to believing that death is the end of the road.When someone close o us dies we were made to believe that the healthier way to deal with it should be; crying, never to forget about them, never being happy again, even when someones says 'Be strong' they will judge you if you are happy with someone else after your wife's death. I remember when our doorman's wife died two years ago. She had leukemia and I had known her for sixteen years. When I heared that she had the disease, I felt that she was going to die. At her first months I kept a little bit distance from her, it was strange watching someone you know for a very long time get weaker. And again it wasn't as hard for me or as painful for me as it was to her family. But I tried to spend more time with her. She always said to me that there is a timing for everything, that I am young and I should have good time, when I get older I will have more responsibilities and everything should happen at the right time or else I won't be able to enjoy any of them. I very much believe that, I'm really taking her advice.The point is; I tried to be close to her because I wanted to know what was going around in her mind, how was she really feeling. I know that when something happens in our lives that seems so dark at the time, can be a healing to our souls, our brain resists to the experience most of the time, because it likes safety and stability. And unknown new horizons are never safe. They are either scary or exciting, painful to accept and knew to learn. I thank her for the experience.